“You Deserve Better”

Have you heard of this phrase before….u must have in your relationships….mostly the person you loved must have said this to you during your breakup or sometime when they felt that your relationship will not go ahead….great isn’t it….ironic actually….when you feel you have found the right person in your life and that very person gives you this fantastic advice it’s like what….really do I deserve hearing this from the person I love the most…..

Ok now we come to does this sentence really make sense….do we really deserve something better ahead of us….who knows and especially when you feel you have the right person then why….its hurtful and sad….

Honestly I also got this same stupid phrase in my life….and guess what I didn’t find anyone better and deserved nothing better…infact I got something totally out of the way and I don’t think deserved it anyway…..hahaha…so my dear people providing this infamous phrase in relationships refrain….and hopefully end up with what you have then playing the infamous deserving game…..or you never know what next???

Sex and the City

I recently watched the full series of Sex and the City for the second time....it starts in the late 90's and ended in 2004 on television and then had two movies which were in 2008 and 2010. The interesting thing I found in these series was not just sex or the bold scenes but the culture the attitude that is so different. I liked the open life, the life in New York which is so versatile, you have so much to do and explore in that city. The gay clubs, the variety of restaurants like bed which was cool, then the salsa dancing, the opera there is so much....I honestly would have loved to stay in New York and stay there to experience this life...but it would have been a far cry....from the stylish people, the designer labels, etc are way beyond a common person. Whatever it was just loved the series, it is very smart, fresh and always a treat to watch anytime. I loved the friendship the girls shared even been so different still they love and respect each other so much....I would surely like to watch this again when I get bored and want to experience New York life again and see the glamour and style and designers wardrobe again...will be back again :)

I dont like this NEW WORLD

Today I was reading through some of my old mails and they were so nice...warm and straight from heart. I felt that fine that era of letters was very slow but the era when mails started that was nice...it was like u had enough curiosity and u could wait a little but yes u finally were getting those mails and feeling happy and replying to the front person it was fun and something was special and good about it....
In today's world, in a few years we have become like machines....there is no curiosity, there is 0% patience....and we are like want means want...there is nothing that we can wait for as we get everything instantly...wanna see boyfriend chalo just do video chat and we are done with it...but in older days we mailed, we waited and we met...i feel that personal something has gone missing now...we hardly try to stay intouch and are very much inhuman...we feel watsapp is there or we have insta or facebook i feel its all fake and stupid we are just loosing ourselves more and more and becoming something that no one cares and wants...i feel the new generation who has grown with this are very fast so they basically are more machine type then human, they break up, hook up and do things at a very fast pace and maybe its normal for them...i feel my generation is worst affected as we have seen this era grow in front of us and we have lived with so many things changing...but i still feel the golden time was somewhere between 2000 to 2010 where things were still incontrol and there was something better i am somehow not liking this NEW WORLD :( 

Love Thee or Love Thou

Today was a great day at work as always...i enjoy my work these days and office too...its a nice work environment especially when you are working with some interesting group of people...I am loving thee now then thou...but somehow I called thou and then again I went into the same space the world I had come out of and I became depressed...then I again got into thinking then did i never evolve...am I at the same place where I had left from...is this world round and the life also round....takes you the same place where you had started off from...is there something called a heart a emotion that hurts that pricks you and you are back to ground zero to the same dump you were out of and fallen there then feeling that I was actually flying....what should I do to get out of this...run away...erase my memory....what can anyone tell me....but I know no one can tell me...all the answers lay in you and you know what's the best...but yes I am back to where I left from and I don’t know where to go and what to do now...One small word Guilty hurt me like a AK47 I was killed on the spot....why is there a way I can stop all this...is there I way I can ran away and overcome all this....I don’t know....please...help...I need that person to tell me he loves me and not the other person....I want him to only love me and want me always and forever why can’t this happen...why can’t I fly and love only thee and stay happy and not feel sad.....why why why???? I am not having answers but there must be some way out somewhere someplace...Can I do something that I can run away forget that feeling...why only I am given an heart and why can’t I too hurt the front person why do I only get hurt....I want to learn and come out of this....need strength to face this....I want to and now I have decided I will try and not get hurt with the words any thou utters.....yes I will be strong....

I  MISS YOU KING OF ROMANCE - YASH CHOPRA

On the 21st October I was on the way to silver beach in Mumbai along with my husband, friend and my dog. We were all in good spirits as the day had been good...also we were quite sad that monday was coming again and office was to start....after spending a fun weekend...I had put on the radio when we got this news that Yash Chopra was no more....I and my friend screamed what???? we were shocked....I know its very filmy...not even knowing this person other then his movies...our reaction was very strong....but yes we really meant it...missed this person.....I was very shaken... don't know why...actually yash chopra's movies thought me to love and made me understand relationships....I started liking Shahrukh Khan...but all the credit goes to Yash Chopra...he made SRK the romantic superpower....

I am a die hard fan of yashji...I have watched his old movies also starring Amitabh Bachchan, Shashi Kapoor etc...my most favorite old time movie was Trishul...it was so energetic...and also I loved Kabhi Kabhi...it was a very different movie and way ahead of its time....In recent times I loved Dil to Pagal Hai...actually this movie made me realize what love is and the feeling one gets when we are in love....I sometimes feel if I would not have watched these films I would have never really understood something like love does exists...I really wanted to go and stand outside the place where Yash chopra final rites were to be performed but as we are employed people and will not get holiday for this I could not go.....but I am writing this blog in memory and to pay my respect and love to the man who was the KING OF LOVE fondly remembered as Yash Chopra.....I love you and miss you.....

Happy Birthday to my sweetheart

Todays day used to be like a very special day to me....it is my sweethearts birthday...I used to be over excited and do all possible things to make it special....even though I think i actually celebrated it just once with him other times I always sent him gifts and cards....and due to long distances could not make it to his birthday but made my presence felt throughout the day by not been present...actually he never liked to celebrate his birthday nor he used to be excited but for my excited he too used to feel the same....he never really believed in celebrating anything for that matter like Christmas, New Year, Valentines day...but staying with me he celebrated everything and then started liking it too...u know he never liked red...but I loved so...he too started wearing red and also the funniest thing was that once he bought red shoes...which even I hated but he wore....he looked quite funny I had thought....so ok we now come back to his birthday....he is married now...happily even I'm but still I miss his birthday...I never wished him for years now...but today I wanted to...we have spent so many years together and now are mature atleast to wish each other...I don't think ones exes and been so much in love that now we can't even wish each other...I don't like that idea...so I decided this time I wish him...I can't call him nor I have his no....but I messaged him on a social network...I know he will hate me for doin that all my life...but who cares....I think everyone is mature enough to understand such things....like how can u just forget such a Special day just like that...u know only if my memory is erased off completely I will forgot it or else it haunts me always...I know he is guy and he can move on...but I challenge that he ever forgets my birthday..I know he will never make an effort to call or message me but yes he will never forget it same as I can't....some relations are for ever and cannot be broken by physical entities as they stay in ur heart and in ur mind always....today is ur day have a blast....and my blog will stay dedicated to u for all ur birthday's always.....

Bai Bai Mumbai mein sabko ghayee

I travel everyday to office by car in Mumbai and believe me that the traffic in this city is impossible. When I leave from home each morning I feel as though I am going in a battlefield and I am a warrior, it’s kind of survival of the fittest and the rest have to keep trying to get fit and survive in this battlefield. It’s a challenge and you face this challenge each day to leave in time, to reach office in time and then to leave from office in time to reach home in time. The time factor is very crucial because every minute counts and to make this every minute count you have to run, rush and fight through this traffic and reach your destination. It’s a mad rush and you are one mad person in this rush who is trying to find a way and get to your destination. I really feel Mumbaikars have high patience to survive this mad rush each day and this rush goes wild during rains. I get so annoyed during rains that you don’t have any idea at what time you will reach home, or will you reach or not is a big question mark???. During rains the traffic is double and the roads get narrower because of the potholes, water logging and what not it’s terrible. But whatever it is you have to run each day and survive each day with the same level of courage and patience to fight and remain in this battlefield called as Mumbai traffic.

I havent lost my CHARM

Recently I was told that I no longer look at life in a fresh way and I am not doin anything to make it exciting......for sometime even I got thinking that is it true that I have become boring or is it that I have no more excitement or charm left......I thought very hard to myself.....even infact I didnt get proper sleep...but I think this statement actually does not apply to me.....okay sometimes you are sad and sometimes you have some kind of emotional flares and stuff like that....but I think that I am not boring nor have I lost any kind of excitement in my life.....I just dont need to prove to anyone whether I am boring or not.......I enjoy my life and I have lots of friends and also I have a lot of things to do....just for sometime I am taking time off and will start my busy life soon......Infact I feel people should come to me to get some advice.....and make their life exciting....you dont need to look at animals or nature and feel excited or you dont need to prove to anyone and make yourself charming...I just want to say that yes I enjoy my life and I love the way its goin on and I love people around me and also I love my city and I love everything around me........